What has happened here?

For months I pinned
I wept
I sobbed
And missed
I slowly moved forward
Feeling no movement
Stuck or spiraling
Never knowing
Then once over
Made the mistake
Broken hearted
Scared
Found another
Mistake or no?
Desires of home
Finding peace
But moments of fear
Entirely surrounded
By confusion
Contradictions
And the misty shadows
Still searching
Wondering
"What has happened here?"