Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Stripped Bare

looking in the mirror
tearing away the fear
all the walls
all the things screening 
looking at the heart and soul
finding strength
seeing beauty
hard working
caring and freeing
trips away
finding the truth beneath
holding on
looking up
seeing forward
backwards clear
all that hope
pulling near
finding strength
wishing truth
finding solace
in my youth
looking back
no longer longing
grateful for strength
no longer wallowing 
who I am shinning through
no reason to hide the truth
beauty and confidence clear again
desiring to help my friends
hopeful heartbeats
dreading pain
but no longer drowning in the agony
Found my own strength
Care about me.
Finding more within the truth
than any reality
no longer needing
those around me
strength within
stronger than anything outside of me
so this is what I get 
for spending 3 weeks stripping myself bare
I found me underneath that mess
what life and expectations tried to define as me
I found instead the true strength from me
from the teacher
the friend
from the adult
the child
the caring and loving individual
that I have always been
Who I will always be
I just need to keep growing
So that I can find the best me
finding strength within yourself is like finding spring.
New Growth
New hope
and the end to a dreary time where you once relied on the winter of others.


Thursday, August 7, 2014

Torn between

Torn between what's right and what feels right
The logic and the passion
The feelings in turmoil with my thoughts
Too far yet too close
How could I trust you the most?
Wanting
Craving
Dreading
Hoping
Not quite at that point
Not giving in
Never giving up
Hopeful
Fearful
Silent
The pounding
The ripping
Torn between
Who you are and where you are
Wanting to help
Wanting you
Heart refuses to believe the truth
Everyday one step closer
Two directions
I'm torn between